Exhaustive Progress

  I would like to start by expressing my sincerest apology to all of my readers.  I had never intended on letting my disability get in the way of providing detailed information and opinions to my readers' awareness.  It's been several days since my last posting.

  Truth be told, I've found myself very drained since my last set of medical appointments.  Last Monday I was scene in Milwaukee to evaluate my nightmares, and then a full day was spent this past Thursday at the North Chicago facility for evaluations in conjunction to my claims.  Progress was made, but was severely taxing on my own level of will.  I've spent several days now over the last week simply unconscious; with a mind to create and write, but no will to do so.  I'm not sure if it's a matter of depression, or simply my body quitting on me.  I'm unsure if I'd even want to know.  If it's depression I'm doomed to adding more mediations to an, already, oversized list.  If it's my body unable to handle the stresses I put it through then it stands to reason that future endeavors may put me out of commission as well...

  I learned that the symptoms I'm exhibiting are those of an individual with PTSD.  They prescribed Prazosin to help ease the nightmares, and want to keep an eye on me to combat my other symptoms if they get overly grand.  Sadly, because my trauma is ongoing, I can not be diagnosed with PTSD, but they'll be treating me as a PTSD patient...  I'm not sure what kind of medical sense that makes, but that's what I've been told.

  The full day of diagnostics on Thursday really took a toll.  I was examined by 4 different professionals and had multiple ex-rays and scans completed.  The doctors seemed honestly baffled that I was denied my initial claim.  The neurologist even told us that his initial write up was of an individual barely able to conduct the basest of human activity.  We were given his name and express instructions to contact him should we be denied another time.  Amy was allowed to be present through every examination except the psychological exam.  This was a major difference compared to previous visits.  There was a certain level of remorse and explanations that they couldn't comprehend how they denied the benefits increase.  I suppose that if things have to go to a hearing level we'll have their doctor's testifying on our behalf...

  I'm hoping that I've caught up on my sleep and have recuperated enough to start my life again.  I'm not overly tired at the moment and think I'll journal a bit (I keep a paper journal) and work on some poetry.  If I manage to stay awake tomorrow then I have plans to finish 'The Three Musketeers' and find a new piece of literature to delve into.  The last few days my vision has been terrible, and I attribute it to the exertions of last week.  Time will only tell.  I'll make plans to have a new post with updated information later in the week...

Thank you all for taking the time to read,
K.M.Shear